quarters

i caught it.

for years i have been an emo kid until later when i became as carefree as a stunt driver without the actual stunts. my friends had it some time ago and some time right now too but i never knew it hits you in the face so suddenly. you just realize that you're thinking about everything and anything that will happen or that is happening or has happened and you begin to tally your life with so many numbers that you almost feel like you're just an irrelevant turd among people.

i choose not to tell people. i just want things to be as they are as is with everyone who catches it. you wonder how they do it. but then again, you're still alive.